Music, Making mistakes, Love, Bitting, Laughing, Smiling, Remembering the good things, ;o and ;D, Writting, Facebooking, Collecting pictures, Anything philosophical, People who are honest, People who are themselves, People who are thoughtful, People who are quiet and have a sense of humor at the same time, Understanding, Trusting, Quotes, Romeo & Juliet, Twilight, Friends.
nothing.
Im so sick and tired of watching the same movies night after night, just so i can dream of you. Im so tired of waking up, and hoping your still there, holding me in your arms. I miss looking into your eyes, and seeing all that i wanted. I miss your understanding, and i miss the feeling of trust. I miss telling you i was scared, just so youd hold my hand. I miss the feelings of butterflys in my belly when youd tell me you loved me. I miss your warm hoodies on cold days. And i miss you calling me when i was sick, just to know if youd see me tomorrow. I miss how id be so excited about getting to talk to you everynight, and telling you all my secrets. I miss your loving hugs, and our endless nights.
Im so tired of wondering what i should have done, and wondering if theres still a chance to be happy with someone else. Im wondering if all the tears i shed were worth anything to you.
You honestly were my reason to get up in the mornings. The reason i knew i could hang on just a bit longer.
Now, im thankful i did. I still see you that way, you know?
I still see you as my first real love, and my first real heartbreak.
