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Welcome to my rant…
OMF. So much stuff to get off my mind, and i figure this is the BEST place to do that. Im SO sick of being walked all over every god damn day. I please everyone, try my hardest anyway. But what the fuck do i get in return? Nothing. It pisses me off so fucking much, honestly. I feel like i have no one to talk to about the shit i want to, because i always put their problems before mine. Whens my time to be happy?
Also, my Poppy died a month ago, and everyone is telling me how well im handling it, and honestly im not. I havent cryed yet. I feel horrible, and no one notices. I might as well jump off a bridge, not like id be missed. Fuck. Im so messed up, im an emotional wreck! Everyone say they loves me, but i dont see it. They come to me with everything, and i dont bother them with my problems, but im expected to sit and listen and help and care. Honestly, i try, but its to the point now, that i dont remember half the shit anyone says cause i just tune out. I feel like breaking down, just sitting and crying and never stopping. I feel tired of seeing everyone but me happy! What a fucking great life eh.
nothing.
Im so sick and tired of watching the same movies night after night, just so i can dream of you. Im so tired of waking up, and hoping your still there, holding me in your arms. I miss looking into your eyes, and seeing all that i wanted. I miss your understanding, and i miss the feeling of trust. I miss telling you i was scared, just so youd hold my hand. I miss the feelings of butterflys in my belly when youd tell me you loved me. I miss your warm hoodies on cold days. And i miss you calling me when i was sick, just to know if youd see me tomorrow. I miss how id be so excited about getting to talk to you everynight, and telling you all my secrets. I miss your loving hugs, and our endless nights.
Im so tired of wondering what i should have done, and wondering if theres still a chance to be happy with someone else. Im wondering if all the tears i shed were worth anything to you.
You honestly were my reason to get up in the mornings. The reason i knew i could hang on just a bit longer.
Now, im thankful i did. I still see you that way, you know?
I still see you as my first real love, and my first real heartbreak.
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emotionless.
“Maybe I know somewhere
deep in my soul
that love never lasts.
And we’ve got to find other ways
to make it alone.
Or keep a straight face.
And I’ve always lived like this
keeping a comfortable distance.
And up until now I’ve sworn to myself
that I’m content with loneliness.”
Hi. I just kinda want to let you know that i miss you.
I miss the way you smiled.
The way you held me.
The way you spoke.
The things you said, ill never forget them.
I dont know what exactly made me feel like this all of a sudden, but you mean the world to me.
And id give anything just to hear you say my name once more.
